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DSC00511The Magic Fifteen

So, I was just about to get up off of my couch, change into some actual clothes, and get something done today, but then I realized something and I had to share.

In fifteen days I’ll be leaving home and going to college.

There, I said it. (Mom, it’s going to be okay. Although, you’re welcome to come into my room and cry with me if you want to. It won’t take much to set off my waterworks at this point.) In a little over a week, I’ll be leaving my family and friends (and cats *sadface*) and braving the unknown. Wow.

It hadn’t really hit me yet. I mean, in the back of my mind, I knew I only had a short span of time left before I left for school. This past week though, I’ve fallen into the trap of thinking that I still had loads of time left. Every day this week I would mentally repeat to myself (excitedly, I might add!), “Only three more weeks until college!” Only, it’s not three weeks until college anymore. Now it’s two.

I’m almost ready. I mean, I’ve finished packing up most of my stuff. My parking permit came in the mail last week. My new laptop arrived in the mail yesterday. Soon I’ll be ordering my textbooks. Things have just sort of been falling into place. I’ve been taking things slowly, lazily. I haven’t been rushed, haven’t felt that deadline looming. The past week I’ve lounged around in bed until lunchtime every morning.

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How To Describe Myself

A list of ten songs, books, poems, and movies that help give you a peek at me–my personality, my passions, my family, and everything else that makes me who I am!

1. Star Wars

OutsideThis may seem like an odd place to start out my list, but once you hear me out, you’ll understand. I’ve been watching the Star Wars movies since I was little. More than I remember watching Disney movies as a kid, I remember planting myself in front of the television to watch Star Wars with my brother. I used to pretend I was a Jedi fighting the Sith alongside such heroes as Luke Skywalker and Obi-wan Kenobi. InsideMy brother and I would have lightsaber duels in the backyard. I would make up stories in my head of my grand adventures traveling around the galaxy, fighting evil. Eventually my playing pretend turned into the first stories I ever wrote. I still have the butterfly notebook I wrote them in. I inwardly cringe a bit when I read through them now–they are chock-full of clichés and wish fulfillment—but they were my first stories. They are the reason I am writing today.

2. The Chronicles of Narnia

TCoNIn the first grade I was a pretty reluctant reader. I knew how to read, but for some reason, things just didn’t click. The Chronicles of Narnia made it all come together, fanning the flames of my absolute passion for reading. To my seven-year-old eyes, these books were huge! But suddenly, the size of the book didn’t matter anymore. I devoured the series at a rate of a book a week. Those books opened up a whole new world to me that I had never even dreamed could exist. And now I cannot stop reading.

3. “When Love Takes You InAnthony

This song tells the story of a life-changing part of my life. When I was eight, my family adopted two children from Russia –Anthony, who was three, and Julia, who was one. It was a big change for us. My brother Rob and I are only fourteen months apart, so he was more my partner in crime than my little brother I had to look out for. But Anthony and Julia are five and seven years younger than me respectively, so the title of “oldest” became more than just a title. I had to truly become a big sister, a roleJulia model, someone they could look up to. It breaks my heart to think about all the painful waiting my mom and dad had to go through during the adoption, “counting down the days until, they [could] hold [Anthony and Julia] close and say, ‘I love you.’” Our family wasn’t complete without them.

4. “There Will Be a Day

This song is extremely important to me, both because of the memory it brings to mind and because of the message it relates. It is a reminder of what I’m looking forward to in Heaven. When my grandmother passed away a few years ago, knowing I could look forward to the day with “No more tears, no more pain, and no more fears,” knowing one day I’d be up there with her, was more comforting than I will ever be able to explain.

5. Nancy Drew

This book series is really special to me because it has become a sort of Nancy Drewlegacy in our family. My mom and her sister read them when they were younger, and when I was eleven my mom passed them on to me. Now my younger cousin is reading them, too. Nancy Drew was a role model to me as a kid–she’s smart and brave and won’t let herself pass up the chance to help someone else. Unlike so many girls in movies and literature, she isn’t dependent on a man to do everything for her, and she wants more out of life than just to be a wife. Nancy wants to make a difference, big or small, in the lives of the people around her. I can’t wait to pass the Nancy Drew books on to my daughter someday.

6. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy

The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy marks my stubbornness and desire to grow. When I asked my dad (who’s copy it was) if I could read it, his answer was that I could, but that political satire played a heavy hand in it and that it would probably go over my head. After that I was determined to get through it. I wanted to read something big, something I couldn’t fully understand, because I wanted to stretch myself, to grow past how people commonly perceived a kid my age.

7. “Rubber Meets the Road

Tail lightsJanuary 14th marks my first anniversary as the owner of my beautiful blue 2003 Ford Mustang. My dad and I spent ages researching. We read practically everything the internet had to offer on what used cars were the most affordable, which ones were the safest, and which ones got the best gas mileage. It seems like we drove to every used car lot within a fifty-mile radius. Now, Samantha (yes, I named my car) is my baby. I handpicked her and paid for half of her. And now, in the fall, I’ll be driving her to college, to Mississippi State University. The song says, “It’s time to put in motion everything you know,” and that’s how I feel. Soon I won’t be sitting around my house doing school work; I’ll be out in the world, ready to impact those around me.

8. “The Road Not Taken

As I related in an earlier blog post, “The Road Not Taken” is one of my favorite poems, and also my introduction to poetry as a whole. But more than just introducing me to the poetry genre, this particular poem reminds me that, as a Christian, I am striving to take the narrow road, the road less traveled.

9. “We Are in LoveCW14-Swing Dancing

Jazz music in general represents a lot of things in my life: it represents my dad, who first introduced me to jazz; it represents a whole section of my hobbies and interests–swing dancing, fountain pens, and typewriters; and of course it represents my love of jazz music itself. It’s vintage and modern, lively and reflective, just like me.

10. The Holy Bible

I saved this one for last because it is truly the most important. The Bible is God’s love letter to me, to everyone who has ever, or will ever, walk this earth. It defines so much of who I am. Without it, I am nothing.